Tuesday, February 23, 2010

What do You want?

The other day on the way to school, I was listening to a worship song. Even though it was
a short drive to the school parking lot, I had one of the most amazing, God-filled times in my car by myself.
The song was about praising God in good times and bad because He is that worthy of it. It was an undeniable fact in that 5 minute car ride- God is good despite the situations I find myself in.
A few days later, I found myself in a bit of a difficult situation. There's been stuff going on at home that has been really reminiscent of my senior year of high school. I'm in the middle of decision making- am I going to react the same way I did 4 years ago, or am I going to react differently?
I'm attempting to react differently. I'm attempting to not run away this time. I'm attempting to make healthier decisions.
But my attempts are going to be in vain if God isn't at the center of it. In church, we were retaught how to pray. Very simply put, prayer is supposed to look a little more like this- God, what do You want?

"God, these last few days and weeks have been hard. A part of me wants to run away... but what do You want?"

"God, I'd rather not look at this. I'd rather bury it again and hope it never resurfaces... but what do You want?"

"God, I want to want what You want... so what do You want?"

The song that I listened to, it had a lot of good ideas. Now's the time to start putting some action behind those good ideas.