I give up

Thursday morning, we had Worship and Accountability.  What that looks like is a message, worship, and (for my major) going through and critiquing the worship set.
During worship, the current worship leader asked us to pray for each other in small groups.  His timing was uncanny.  I was having one of those mornings where I could feel God moving and felt heavy in the best way possible.  Honestly, it was a really distracted time.  Some people got on the mic to share some thoughts, the music was too loud, other people had to talk louder to be heard over the music.  Finally, when most people stood up to participate in the songs, I went and sat off to the side to hang out with God.

Here's the conversation we had:

"Give up"

"Why?"

"Just do it!"

"Fine!"

Then I cried.  That was the lesson I learned for the day.  I unclenched my fists and just for a little while let my walls crumble.  It was a wonderful moment between God and me...in the middle of a mass of people.  Woah!

I look forward to and anticipate more intimate moments like that with God this week.

Only because it's been a while

I have been fairly good about updating this blog thingy at least once a month....February escaped me.

So lot of stuffs have been happening and are coming up over the next few weeks for me.  Here they are:

1. I got a job at Apple and am loving it.  I get to do what I do best- hang out with people and get to know them and what makes them tick.  Seriously, that's what I do- selling is a by-product....or should I say "buy product?" eh eh.

2. My guitar performance is coming up this Thursday.  I'm playing Neon by John Mayer- a song that has been kicking my butt since December.

3. My vocal performance is in a few weeks.  I'm singing a Sarah Mclachlan song to work on my head voice...which is still, primarily, non-existent.

4.  I am only going to be home in Eau Claire for 2 weeks this summer.  Most of my time is going to be spent here in Memphis due to work.  That's mostly alright with me- Memphis is starting to feel like home.

5.  I applied for an RA position for the next school year.  I am waiting to hear back on that- hoping for the best!



That's most of what has happened and what will be happening.  There have been a lot of little things in between and many great conversations with friends I am getting to know better.  I am so happy and blessed to be at this school.  My grades are higher here than they ever were in all of K-12 because I love what I'm doing.  I am being stretched as a musician and as a person. Though it often feels overwhelming, I'm never stretched beyond what I can handle...and I'm finding out I can handle a lot more than I have given myself credit for in the past.

Ok bye.